Morning by Morning (2/17/18)

My daily gratitude for:

  1. My parents and all the support and love they have showered on me this week. And they have surrounded Ryan with all sorts of play, laughter, running, candy, and all other spoiling! So when they love on Ryan, by extension they love on me.
  2. When Ryan sits and lays with me and helps me feel all special inside.
  3. Palm trees, just cause they feel like home.
  4. Bob Flory and Ryan Coleman, among others, for being people who reach out and care.
  5. My brother Josh and his prayers for me and seeing his growing maturity in faith.

Morning by Morning (2/16/18)

My daily gratitude for:

  1. When friends stop and pray with me. It means so much to hear the prayers spoken on behalf of me, my family, Ryan, and my work.
  2. The profound connection of friendship that is so easily rekindled when friends meet after time away. Here’s to you Cambry and Adam!
  3. Fathers Office, a restaurant in Santa Monica that you need to try when you are in. Great burger!
  4. The way my church and community and support system can carry my emotions while I try to acknowledge them and move forward. We as a body of Christ are charged with carrying joy for those who can’t at the moment, carrying grief when others feel weighted by it, carrying anger when someone can’t fully express it, and holding brokenness when others feel overwhelmed by it. So even when I can’t fully touch how I feel, my church and friends carry it for and with me.

Morning by Morning (2/15/18)

My daily gratitude for:

  1. The chance to see Cambry today and spend some quality time with him.
  2. The incredible and enduring support of the PICU staff and the physicians I know around the hospital. I keep getting messages of encouragement and pick me ups!
  3. Laughing with family! Especially about each other and making light of our own humanity.
  4. Having all the details of the new apartment squared away already so I have three weeks to think about the furniture and arranging the move. It’s been nice to see what I can do when I need to be in charge.
  5. Potty training Ryan with my parents- they are more than committed when Ryan is only mildly so!
  6. Seeing Ryan talk to himself as he plays on his own.
  7. The mild and beautiful weather in SoCal that has allowed to walk and reflect and walk more.

Morning by Morning (2/14/18)

My daily gratitude for:

  1. What I have learned about myself in the last 5 years and what I want in my relationships.
  2. The joy of traveling and having fun with Ryan.
  3. Adam Jacobs and dinner with him last night. He’s a great support, a true best friend, and someone whose heart for God and for me is clear. How blessed I am!
  4. Valentines Day and all good memories it does represent, even when it’s not the best of circumstances.
  5. Watching Ryan and my Dad have fun.

Morning by Morning (2/13/18)

My daily gratitude for:

  1. Elijah and Ryan and their energy playing together.
  2. Watching all the family at the bowling alley last night and loving that these committed bowlers are my people doing something I totally love!! League bowling as a family!
  3. Beautiful clear SoCal sky today!
  4. My colleagues at TCH who were kind to let me have this week during the chaos of Ash Wednesday so I could be with my family. They are working extra hard this week making up for me and their support and compassion is not forgotten.
  5. Lent and Ash Wednesday and the way their message speaks to me in this season of life.

Morning by Morning (2/12/18)

My daily gratitude for:

  1. Time with my mom and Dad this last night and the comfort being around them!
  2. Watching Ryan and his cousins Elijah, Hayley, and Will play together with all the fun toys at my parents house.
  3. The chance to have my Grandmas potato soup this week!
  4. Being approved for a lease at the apartment that I want and having a move in date. That is exciting!
  5. Family selfies!

Morning by Morning (2/10/18)

My daily gratitude for:

  1. A good night of sleep, the first in a while.
  2. Dave Steffen, a great Oncology Fellow who is full of compassion and connects with the families well, and is also a good friend. I love serving at the Retreat of Renewal with him.
  3. Pretty walks in the morning. It’s actually a little sunny and a little warm, and it makes for great walks.
  4. Coffee. Yep, I’m drinking it now, almost every day and multiple times a day. Completely changed man I am!

Morning by Morning (2/9/18)

My daily gratitude for:

  1. The presence of people when anxiety and grief start setting in. I see this at the hospital and see it in other places as well and I just marvel at the power of presence for others, and for me.
  2. Dad jokes. I have loved this growing skill of mine!
  3. Throwing some discs at Camp For All before families arrived and having that quiet and alone time.
  4. The Retreat of Renewal, a Camp for families who have lost a child to cancer. This weekend I get to work with fathers and mothers whose love has been tested and challenged and stretched and deepened. I love them deeply and love this work deeply as my place of strength and refuge.

Morning by Morning (2/7/18)

My daily gratitude for:

  1. My last day of work for the next week and a half. I can’t wait to be in Brenham with the sweet families from TCH and then with my own sweet family in SoCal. I will be surrounded in love for the next 9 days. Awesome!
  2. Trying new things, like a concert for Sleigh Bells last night!
  3. Ryan growing up and being so cute. He is my world right now!
  4. Reading Pete the Cat and His Four Groovy Buttons with Ryan. He loves this book now!

Morning by Morning (2/7/18)

My daily gratitude for:

  1. The ritual of attending church, which has provided great comfort and grounding throughout the difficult times in the last 8 years. Just the act of showing up has been a beautiful and meaningful act, regardless of worship or class or how much I’m fed. God is good and God has been good to me through Southwest Central.
  2. The many number of teachers Ryan has had at his daycare, Homegrown Kids, and the way they have loved on him and brought him laughter and play and comfort.
  3. The power of friendship.
  4. Going home to SoCal for a week next week. Home will be a welcome place.
  5. Cambry, Adam, and Jon. Good friends!